A Conversation with God

- You know what God? I'm tired. I'm tired of feeling attacked.  I'm tired of feeling like I care for others and no one cares for me.
- I'm all you need.
- I don't care, I'm done.
- You don't mean that. 
- Seriously, now "Changed" is on the radio... not funny.
- Put on My armor
- Sigh.  I just want to know the purpose behind all of this God.  I'm tired of getting a random card from my daughter, having a specific sentence in a book stand out to me.  Responding to a thought, and getting nothing.  It's just not fair.  Why can't I have people in my life that treat me the way I treat them.
- You don't like the way I made you? Put on My armor.
- It's not that, it's just... I don't konw
- I'm all you need.
- I know, but still.
- Patience, daughter.
- Fine. Your armor is...
    "Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints." (Ephesians 6:10-18).
- It will all be restored
- Yeah, right.
- You don't trust me?
- Yes, but restore what?
     "Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen." (1 Peter 5:6-11).
- Fine.  But seriously, testing me and tempting me and frustrating me and causing me to doubt myself isn't going to shake me faith.
- It isn't? You seemed pretty riled up.
- That's, ... ok. Fine. By my head never doubted even if my heart does.
- The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. (1 Peter 4:7-8)
- Yeah, well, I loved and look where it got me.
- You still love.
- So, what.
- It covers a multitude of sins.
- What does that mean?
- Read on.
- Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. (1 Peter 4:9-11).
- Ok?
- Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. (1 Peter 3:1-4)
- I don't consider myself very gentle, nor do I have a quiet spirit.
- You are selfless, you are a gentle and loving mother and friend to all that are near to you.
- Ha, probably to a fault... it hasn't gotten me very far in life.
- It hasn't? What about in the band? With your small group? The children you are raising for me.
- What does the band have to do with it?
- Remember what Chief said
- Oh. Why does this have to be so hard?
- Your strength is in me.
- I know.  But still.
- Yes, still yourself in me.  "Praise be to the Lord, for he has heard my cry for mercy. The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song." (Psalm 28:6-7)